Midsummer crisis.

Sunday, July 13, 2014

I can't be the only one who is in denial that the summer is halfway over already. I mean, really.. where does the time go??

I feel like I had such big ideas for this summer. I wanted to start this blog and get it really going. I wanted to start eating healthier and exercising regularly. I wanted to take my road test (yes, seriously). I wanted to start working on ProjectLife. I wanted to read lots of books and go lots of places. I wanted to get a summer job. I wanted to learn how to make ice cream from scratch. I had so many plans back in May when I came home from college and as little as I've accomplished off of that list, I'm in shock that it's already the middle of July.

I've been so torn- not that it's an excuse, but I have. I'm leaving to study abroad in England exactly two months from tomorrow and the thought both thrills me and kills me. Every time I think about it I freak out and wonder whether I've been spending enough time with my family, or seeing my friends enough. I wonder if I'm spreading myself too thin (and THEN I start to wonder where all my time is going since I've accomplished nothing I intended to). But really, it's the boy. I'm spending every waking second with him because I know (for certain) that it is leaving him that is going to rip my heart completely out. More on this later.

But really, that is the reason I haven't finished anything I've started. It's a huge problem. And trust me, I've heard it all: "You're going to have the time of your life!" "You'll get to travel the world!" "It's a once in a lifetime experience!" "You know I had a friend who's daughter left for a semester and she just never came ba-" Let me stop you there, because I've heard it and don't doubt a single bit of it. But that doesn't make my life, pre-departure, any easier, really.

Moral of the story: I'm trying my best.

I'm 20 years old without a job, without any obligations and I have a lot on my plate. Be it, my 20-year-old plate is rather small, it's still overwhelming. I'm just trying to get it all in before D-Day, which shockingly leaves little time for anything else.

I think that July 13th is just what I needed. It's the "kick in the ass," as my grandma would have said, that I needed to get myself going. This is getting real now.


Tuesday, April 1, 2014

Well I'm finally making progress! I finally broke down and bought a template online and I'm really hoping (fingers crossed!) that it gives me a little inspiration to start making posts or at least thinking of some topics I would potentially like to write about. I've recently started following a bunch of blogs on bloglovin' and have really been enjoying them. That's sort of what started this overwhelming desire to do this. But for the most part, I've been loving the makeup/beauty/fashion posts, food/recipes, DIY projects and cute photograph blogs and especially lifestyle posts. I've never really been into that sort of stuff, but for some reason I could see myself talking a lot about things like that. So, basically I still don't really know how this blog is going to go, but since I've made a $15 investment maybe that will give me some incentive to actually make something of this.. so lets hope for that!


something new

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

I've never had a blog on Blogger before.. but I'm hoping i can get the hang of this soon! In the past, I have always used Tumblr's and although those are great, I'm hoping to start a more sophisticated blog about beauty, fashion and general lifestyle topics. After lots of deliberation, I decided that this was the perfect platform to do so, and am looking forward to starting something new and exciting!
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